Realise that my life is so restricted and tiring. Or maybe its everybody’s lives. Just got reminded of how shitty my family can be sometimes. And i want to get away so badly. And I feel so thankful that tomorrow is Sunday, meaning that I can run away for the day. But then I’m reminded that I have no one to run away to tomorrow. Except maybe, clothes and shoes and handbags.
You ask me to try and trust you back.
I said if time gives me that chance.
What i meant is that I’m afraid that mistrusting you may break the relationship before time will allow me to build up that trust again.. Thats what I meant.
Not sure if I’m crying out of stress from home or stress from relationship.
I have a myriad of things I would like to do to myself and none of them are pleasant.
Those words that night always have a way of coming back aeound. These two days have been blissful, but only when I’m alone in bed do I wonder if one day, today will bite me back in the ass… What if..If one day you will say something like ‘i dont know why you say I dont spend time with you when I took two days leave for your birthday.’. Because essentially thats what you said the other night…
I couldnt retrieve and save the entire whatsapp fight convo, but some words were so shattering and impactful that I can quote everything back word for word.
It’s been a lovely day but I just wanna sleep right now. I don’t want to stay up till midnight like last year and moan about how I’m not special anymore.
“Only people who think they are pretty will say that they are ugly online.”
Same euphemism. It hurts terribly to be unspecial, I quite feel more empathy for whiny pathetic girls now lol. Well, I should since I have became one.
